So I know I haven't been writing a whole heck of a lot on here, and I apologize profusely... I am excited to announce that I will be doing a series of blogs... The series is going to be based on the individual songs off of Derek Webb's Mockingbird... If you'd like to hear the songs, the entire album is completely free at www.freederekwebb.com... all you have to do is type in 5 emails of friends to invite to the website, and you can download the whole thing completely free with no other strings attached... if you are worried about it being a scam, I will type (translation - cut and paste) out the lyrics and then discuss a few of my personal opinions, and I want you to feel free to comment, debate, yell at me for being a weirdo, leave snide remarks or whatever else you so choose... I don't pretend to know everything, and I want you to know this is an open ended conversation with myself and yourself...
so let's get started with the first track...
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Mockingbird
Derek Webb
VERSE 1
There are days I dont believe the words I say
Like a life that Im not living
A song that Im not singing but to you
There are times that I believe Im satisfied
Like an intimate connection
Despite this bad reception with You
PRE CHORUS 1
Because I cant afford to pay
For most of what I say
So its a lucky thing
That the truths public domain
CHORUS
And I am like a mockingbird
Ive got no new song to sing
And I am like an amplifier
I just tell you what ive heard
Im like a mockingbird
VERSE 2
So yes, its true that i need this more than you
Like one whose name is many
Have mercy, please dont send me away
PRE CHORUS 2
And Ill do all I can
To be a better man
Oh Ill clean up this act
And be worse than when we started
CHORUS
And I am like a mockingbird
Ive got no new song to sing
And I am like an amplifier
I just tell you what ive heard
Im like a mockingbird
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These words are pretty much how a feel a lot of the time Most of the time, I find myself just wandering through this life day by day. Struggling to make sense of things and my actions. I mess up. Im human. But Im tired of excuses. I am the king of excuses.
Amazingly, through all the junk I but God through, there are a few moments where I can see or feel something or someone greater than myself at work. There are times when I feel these glimpses of the greater good. Like when I look at the stars on a fall evening and I just know deep down that there is someone or something huge out there and in those few precious moments I feel somehow connected with that giant entity. My Rabbi, described these moments a couple weeks ago as times when the Kingdom of Heaven breaks through the kingdom of mere men and heaven collides with our earth. Or simply as Kingdom Moments.
Its crazy how when we hear great ideas, we listen to them, often repeat them, and we think that somehow in the retelling of these wonderful ideas that it makes us somehow better. We never actually live it out, but somehow in the retelling of these great idea it makes us seem like we are better people. I am guilty, guilty, GUILTY of this. So if it seems like I am pointing fingers, know that I point at myself first. Its not like I am this big liar or a scam artist. Im just a kid trying to figure out how to live a better way in a world of distractions and easy fixes. And for all of my vices, its easier said than done.
Its time that we did something about it. Its time that I did something about it. Its time to quit being doppelgangers and start being real legitimate believers in a better world. Its time to start practicing what we preach. I pray to God this isnt just another time I just say words.
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michael john
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