ABK

it's been a year since you left.
things have changed.
things have stayed the same.
but time has swallowed me up.
memories fly in and out of my head.
thinking about things you said.
the words muted.
the fire put out.
i wonder if you knew.
what did you think in the final moments?
my heart pulls me under.
i wish i could see you again.
from time to time i still do.
a bitter echo that haunts me.
i can't disguise the open wounds.
my heart aches.
and tears don't quench the pain.
i don't wanna hurt.
i'm exhausted from feeling this way.
if only you could come back.
such a hollow dream.
a dream i can't quit dreaming.
i still look, expecting to see you.