ciy and what not...

so i went to ciy this week, and came back with black and hot pink hair. i put my earrings back in... all for my new band akemoe... haha... we already have a hit song.

ciy was rad. i could talk about all the silly little things that happened, (and i am sure it will come out eventually)... but instead i want to talk to you about what came of of those silly little things... it confirmed a lot of my thoughts and opinions about community. and also made me realize how unimportant things like ciy can be in the long run... (ciy is rad but...)

it's not that i didn't get anything out of ciy. i totally did. some things i agreed with and some things i didn't. here's the deal. i came to the realization that mountain top events don't make you a christian. it's what you do in your everyday life that determines who you are. as much as i love ciy, i realize that i don't need that "pick me up" anymore... i think nowadays i find Jesus when I am hanging out with friends, talking about random things, and actually getting dirty for Jesus... where as before i needed the lights, the loud music, and being totally cut off from the world... i mean the lights and everything are great for a season, but for me that season has passed... it's time to take what i know and live it out now... i loved hanging out with everyone, talking about Jesus, life, and whatever... writing crazy songs and singing about dinosaurs while pounding on the tables in the cafeteria... to me that was the best part...

I am not bashing ciy in any way... i totally want to go back next year if my church is going... it's just that my focus has shifted... i've matured a bit in my christianity... mainly a lot of this is due to my rabbi for his teaching skills, and kim g for loaning me the irresistible revolution for like 3 months (go buy it and read it now... below is a link) and having the guts to actually continually work on living it out herself... props to your both...

right now my life is a mess, my "religion", my "politics", they way i do things, everything... and frankly... i love it... i love that i am changing and growing... that excites me and it scares me at the same time...

the end for now...