in my head...

well... i don't typically like explaining any of the songs that I write... I like to be vague... but I am gonna buck the trend and explain my upcoming song on myspace... it's called "in my head"... honestly i wrote and recorded it 6 months ago... and to be honest the song is a mess... i almost don't even want to refer to it as a song because it really has no structure... it's the same 2 chords over and over with a bunch of vocals stacked on top of each other... it's inspired by the stack o vocals concept mastered by the great Brian Wilson... I sat down and just wanted to record something pure and honest... so i decided not to "write" the song... and take more of a "just let it happen" approach... each lyric was honestly the first thing that came into my mind right before i sang each part... i recorded each lyric separate of each other... so with each vocal all I heard were the 2 chords going back and forth... as i recorded each line I had no idea what it all sounded like together till the very end... when I recorded it I never really expected to share it... it was my little piece of music... but the more time has passed the more I have felt compelled to share it... It's a very therapeutic song to me... it's an interesting thought progression... it's really just composed of 6 thoughts that were running in my head... i will now go into detail with each of the 6 lyrics...

1. "WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?"
It's a question we all ask ourselves. What the heck am I thinking? Where the heck am I going? Why have I done the things that I've done? Where is this path leading me?

2. "THIS IS THE END, I KNOW IT'S HERE."
The first thought often leads to the second... the inevitable feeling of hopelessness... when things aren't where they need to be and you know there is nothing you can do but hope for hope...

3. "I'M CALM. I'M COOL."
I often tell myself to just be calm and play it cool. I take a deep breath...

4. "I'LL BE OKAY. I'LL BE JUST FINE."
Once again thought 3 often leads to thought 4... I tell myself that I can make it through this.... Every little thing will work itself out... When the dust settles I'll be okay. I'll be just fine. Sometimes we need to reassure ourselves that we'll make it through...

5. "WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?"
What the heck is wrong with me? Am I the only one who gets themselves in these situations? Is this an endless circle? There has seriously got to be something wrong with me...

6. "HALLELUJAH HALLELU"
It's interesting and very telling that I often find myself giving praise after I've tried to sort these things out on my own... It's humbling to admit that most of the time, going to God is the last thing I think of...

well there's a little insight to the upcoming song...