i've been thinking, over thinking.

sorry guys, i gotta vent... so if you don't want to hear whining, hit back now...

Do you ever feel like life is an endless circle? like when everything seems "better" or even "normal". something happens. the same crap keeps popping up to mess things up? i mean it's somehow different, but yet it's the same. different person or a different issue. but it's something that just ruins your day. today i went to return 4 dead goldfish to walmart (yes you can return dead fish with a receipt and up to 90 after you bought them... btw, contra kicked the bucket last night)... Anyway the line was really long... and some random dude asked the clerk is she was getting flustered by the long line... it was obvious she was but she replied "same crap, new day"... that's kinda how the past few days have felt... I'm flustered but nothing feels new... it's rehashed issues... i am so sick of it too. why can't everyone pull it together, and not be lame? seriously. a lot of things suck. and i am tired of those things. can't i just get a breather? maybe that's what i've been having, and this is my notice to let me know my 15 minute break is over. o how i long for the next 15 minute break. lately, i've been thinking about taking a vow of silence for a day or so. just not talking. i am tired of noise. really. i need silence. i need air. i need to be alone. to think. to breathe. to dwell. to be. I just want to be.
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be
1. To exist in actuality; have life or reality: I think, therefore I am.
2. To occupy a specified position.
3. To remain in a certain state or situation undisturbed, untouched, or unmolested.
4. To take place; occur.
5. To go or come.
6. To have a specified significance.
7. To belong to a specified class or group.
8. To have or show a specified quality or characteristic.
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